I still, still keep your picture
On the stand beside my bed
So you're next to me when I set the alarm
I close my eyes; you're in my head
Your fingerprints are on the piano
Left all your
Post-Its by the phone
And baby, I guess that I should clean you up around here
But I don't like to be alone
So I leave the house
I walk on down the block a ways
I stare into the sidewalks
And in the cracks, I see your face
I hear people yelling 'round me
Every last one has your voice
I try, but I can't find my solace in the city noise
I try to move on by
I try to turn the corner
But when I look up, I see you every time
The days go by, the nights are lonely
I spend my evenings at the bar
And it seems so cliche to find a nameless,
naked body
To drunkenly wrap 'round me in the dark
He doesn't ask about your photograph
And I don't
bother to explain
But when I close my eyes, it's you I'm bending over
It's your body wrapped around mine in the rain
But then I wake up
I silence the alarm and pray that
When I roll over, babe
Instead of him, I'll see your face
He cries out in his sleep
And in my head he has your voice
I try, but I can't find my solace in this broken boy
I try to pass you by
I try to find a mirror
But when I look up, I see you every time
Well, maybe I'm naive, but there's a part of you in me
You're the wrinkles in my skin, you're in the spaces in the sheets
And maybe I'm
a sadistic girl, but I need you here with me
'Cause now, my greatest fear is that I'll
feel your semblance vanishing
I still, still
keep your picture
On the stand beside my bed
And though its
presence there is torture
It's your absence that I dread
Each night I come home
I lock the front door, climb the stairs and
I wander through the hallways
Hoping that I'll find you there
I know the house is quiet
But I swear I can hear your voice
And now I know it's true that silence makes the loudest noise
I crawl on into
bed
I close my eyes and pray
That baby, when I dream, I see you
every time
